how to disappear completely
i feel like i hurt too many people. i feel least sorry about you, k. but my babe, my lex… and poor n, who will love me and love me even when she knows i don’t feel the same. this is awful. i don’t simply want to disappear, i want to erase myself from their lives. i hate the idea of having caused anyone pain. especially lex. i feel most helpless there.
